And good riddance!

Yesterday night I fought with Maria (not my sister). We were out drinking ourselves to submission at the Berlin club. It was one of the times when I was leaving the happily dizzy state and entering the extremely dizzy one. At that point I must be having an extremely good time, so that the drink won’t affect me badly, or I stop. The only option to have a good time then was to be doing something with Maria. While at the start she didn’t object to me kissing her, later she did and she even started wondering how to hit on the guy next seat. Now this just won’t do, I made some tries to bring things up close but they didn’t work and then she told me. The only reason se let me kiss her or hug her and stuff like that is because she was feeling pity for me because I am alone or something like that. At this point I told her to fuck off (literally my words) and left.

Now who the fuck does she think she is? The only reason I hang out with her is because I was hoping for a nookie down the road, I didn’t want her as friend and we didn’t fit that well together either for a relationship. The fact that she wanted to see me all the time all the time severely cramped my style when trying to find someone else.

We continued the fight through SMS where I told her to find someone else to feel pity for and come get her laptop ASAP. She replied by telling me that she didn’t have any other way of telling me that she didn’t saw me sexually and that she hopes for my best (condescending shit) where I replied that she should pity someone who needs it and that she didn’t understand shit.

Today she came in to pick up her laptop while I was sleeping. I woke up (from my grandmother that kept shouting me to meet her friend outside and bring him in. I don’t know why the fuck she was so excited) and watched her pack it and leave with a simple goodbye. She later asked me through SMS the password for her new linux.

Good riddance.

Eh FFS!

This is really stupid! I just can’t believe how stupid women can be at times!
So I’ve been going out with this girl for the last week ALL THE FUCKING TIME and we have a good time ALL THE FUCKING TIME but when I try to kiss her she pulls away. She is not ready for a relationship - she says. She thinks that she will treat me badly - she says. Never mind the fact that we could be fucking married with all the time we’ve been spending together…

This is really, really sad. Why can’t a nice guy get the good girl he wants? Why do they prefer the jerk-kind of man and fall for them and stay with them for many damn years while I can’t hold a relationship for more than a couple of months? The fact that they seem to always break up because they “Have personal/psychological problems” or because they think that “I’m too fucking nice” for them (emphasis mine) is just icing on the cake!
I guess the only solution is to become a jerk myself. Yeah, that’s it, act like a nice guy on stupid chicks to get them to open their legs and then ignore them until they go away. Shouldn’t be too hard to do…only I won’t do it.
It may be the easy (sex) way but I just won’t lower my standards. (I’d like to see me say that a couple of years from now on the same situation…)

However this situation still pisses me off. If I can’t do anything with a girl that I know likes me, where do I stand? Am I too nice for my own good? I have a feeling that no matter what Diane says the dude is right…

Yesterday I was talking with a good friend of mine and he told me this little wisdom:

You must not be too perfect for a woman. If you do that you just let them walk all over you, and you can never hold out long enough. What you must do is make them happy with less. If you give them everything at the start they’ll start asking for even more later but if you give them just a few they’ll be happy when you do act normally, even for a little while.

(free quote, not his exact words)
I am not convinced that he is right yet, but if I don’t find someone to prove him wrong there is no other option…

There are no other news because the only thing I’ve been doing is hanging out with my new friend…buzz off!

W00t!

Yestrday I met this very beautiful girl (she told me she used to work as a model and I believe her) at X club, as I was out with some mates for a drink, and we got to talking. After a while and after her friends dumped her we moved to Dizzy to continue. We chatted, we laughed, we touched and all in all my libido got some help. Now we talked through messages on the phone and decided to meet today as well. I don’t know how it will turn out but I sincerely hope it turns out for the best.